Trust? What is it? Nobody ever talked to me about that. In fact, They always told me to don't ever trust nobody, they said people are mean, but I think that if we trust somebody in some cases It is not bad at all, It open us new windows, makes us feel wonderful and new emotions and in case those are bad ones It is in some way good too because It makes you stronger and more human, I mean, you know what is good because of the bad, you know you are happy because of the other many times that you´ve cried.
I just know that all those times I didn't obey my father and trusted some people It was wonderful and I don't regret nothing about that.
I've been dreaming about you all the time, I thought about how good your lips against mine would be, the taste of it, how tight I would huge you, I wouldn't never let you go. I remembered all those days when I stopped eating because some sort of butterflies where in my stomach, when I never would leave without my phone because talking to you was more important than anything else. Now I just can think about it because you're not longer mine.
Me desperté pensando en lo que iba a hacer hoy y tranquilamente visualicé la playa sin importarme nada más porque en parte es verano y además tampoco me tengo que preocupar excesivamente por el futuro; recordé lo que ayer me había dicho mi madre antes de dormir : " Lo vas a volver a ver, lo vas a conseguir porque siempre consigues lo que quieres, eres una suertuda". Y la verdad es que no le falta mucha razón, siempre alcanzo lo que quiero. Me provoca una sensación de tranquilidad pero también tengo que recordar que para conseguirlo siempre me toca hacer algún sacrificio pero, sin duda, lo que recibo a cambio es mucho mejor.
It's been so long. Some people don't even understand how bad, wonderful, worth it and painful It was. It didn't make me or define me but It helped me to settle down some sort of priorities; which makes me see myself easily.
Some people are so mean... nobody can describe them but I can tell you something about them. They will try to destroy you. They have NOT personality, they are bored, their lifes are defined by yours, their expectations are unreal and then they will blame you because they can't reach and they won't care if you are not guilty because they won't have anyone to blame but you, and when you get tired of their paranoids they will tag you just because you don't want to belong to their "morals".
There are a lot of times that I want to go back. There are a lot of things I wish I had never done.
If I look back I remember all those things that I would like to repeat, stop the time just in that moment, taste it, get into it, and make it unforgettable.
Everything now is done, just in the way that it should be to become me, like a person.
All that I made, wrong or right, is me.
Today. It is a special day. I did everything i shouldn't do but I cannot go back on time. It's done, same as those eternal days thiking abou you, about what you were doing and with who. I made all those things that make you upset but now I don't really care about if you love me, if you hate... everything I want to do is have fun!
I don't understand at all why everybody gets so upset when you tell them that they're not the one, because, how many posibilities do you have to be the one? Think about it. It's just one in 7 billions.
They warned me about you. They told me that you were not that wonderful person. But you came with your great smile and your good palaver making me think that you were the right one, worth it and I didn't do other thing that fall down with you into the deepest dark.
¿ What if we never got it? What if we are that persons who have to see how the life goes, without really reach it. Don't take me wrong, It's not because we don't want to but there is all those other things that is making us fail everytime we try to make our dreams truth, or reach our goals.